CORY
Cory, I have to admit to you something. I feel like I never talk to you. Like when we talk, it's you talking and me smiling and listening. And it's messing with my esteem. I know you're this really nice strong person, and I'm rather weak, but please remember that I am way more fragile than I let on. It may be a little thing for anyone else, but (poetic time) my heart has been hit, scratched, burnt, neglected, spit on, forgotten, lost, I don't want any more heart ake. But the truth is if we're going to be friends (Which i for sure want that :) Then this relationship can't be one sided. You need to listen more. And maybe this is true for your other friends? Maybe Kelli thinks this? I don't know if it's just me. I want to be your friend, but if you don't listen to me before we know it I'll have another break down and I can't make eye contact with you anymore. I don't want to push you away, so I won't.
MEGU
I don't know how to push people away, never could because if I did I was scared they'd get hurt. I was always pushed away therefore I just can't. Somtimes I think that I care too much for people. I'll go out of my way to make sure the other is comfortable. That's my biggest burden on myself. So thank you for caring about me, and noticing things NO ONE ELSE would've or would've brought attension to. I can tell you care a lot because when you notice small things, you don't just leave it there, you go on and investigate and cconfront me. To be honest I need someone like you, you make me confront my self, more over, my own feelings :) Thank you for caring, I will NEVER let you go no matter what happens or what feelings occur.
NEJ
Thank you also for being there for me. Even when I push away, you and Megu never get fazed and hug me tight never the less :) My biggest issue was that I didn't feel like I was ANYONES number one. And thus I pushed you guys away.But in reality, when I push away I only want to pull you closer. I don't know why I do that, it's just my horrible nature.
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