Sometimes i look at the people in my life and silently thank them for keeping me here. Not trying to sound pitiful or made up, but if it weren't for my friends making me smile, keeping me focused on whats real and on the brighter side then I would've ended myself. But now I look back on that as a page in my life I've come to surpass and I almost smile. I still go through tough things and it still hurts, trust me I stay strong but I know I'm fragile. But as Megu quoted, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" so my only hope is that I become stronger through my struggles. I mean who doesn't?
Realizing that a new chapter is being written though is scary, I feel like I'll become less and less to my friends, I just want a stable living environment and positive home life. Me and friend were talking about that the other day. If we had children (me and her want to adopt :) then how would we parent them? Well those re the quitys I want most for my children. A big house, safe neighborhood and nice adult friends I can depend on (Maegan, Jen, Tori, Shelby and Andi for sure :) Getting them into an instrument soon in life would be a plus I know I would've loved to start my cello sooner, maybe age eight at the least and age ten at the most. Music is my way of getting away, like taking a vacation from my life.
Well there I go for today, count on these posts being longer and longer though~
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