Gatos thoughts 3

    Today at school there was a big meeting with all the eighth graders going into high school about the classes they'd like to take, the units they need to get a diploma and grades yada yada~
Well I KNOW I shall be taking Orchestra but that's about it really. There are three periods open for electives, so I'm debating between Introduction to Computer Graphics, Journalism 1 and French 2 (I think I'll be taking French 1 though for the sake of me and being with my friend who will be taking it for the first time) So I have a lot to think about and the form is due March eighth (four more days to think about it)

      *Sigh* Its been stressing me out  little, all the pressure of getting good scores for my high school transcript so my college application will be gleaming and no one could turn me down :) I'm shooting for an honors diploma (GPA of 3.5 or above) so that this can happen but the pressure still weighs heavily on my mind. Good grades are the key to a better future so I must work my butt off now so later on I can enjoy life a lot better. To start with all this I have to start from scratch, push all the drama from my life to the side and out of the way so there is nothing stopping me from my school work. Two, I'll need to be positive, a positive attitude leads to a positive view on my school work. Thus making me look more forward to going to school instead of dreading it and getting worse grades. I think you understand. Basically and simply if you enjoy something you'll want to excel at it wont you? Yes :)

   This summer I'd love to spend hiking through the woods with my best friends, shooting my bow, updating my Role Play and making wonderful memories. And I will, but I've encouraged myself to attend a summer school. Not because my grades are bad but so when I go into high school I know I'll be ready for all the work and pressure that comes along with it. But I have a horrible habit of making big huge plans and then opping out on them or pushing them aside. Working on that will be big for me, if I go into high school with an attitude like that then I am sure to have a bad college year as well.

   I don't want to be too hard on myself but if I don't push myself forward than no one will. My mother has proved to be less than apathetic and I really have no one else there for my. Jon, my ex step dad has been there for me more than anyone in my life, more than my actual birth parents combined actually. That's what stresses me out a lot too, I realize how alone and small I am in the world when I look at the people around me. Oh well though, I've gotten past that.

    I just looked into summer camp, $2000 dollars for three months of academic summer camp :O I'm horrified! It just seems like every time I put my heart into something, one way or another it gets screwed up. Everything up till now has proven so. Not everyone gets that picture perfect life, but when they do they can't appreciate it because everything is handed to them and their just used to it. That's what I've come to conclude really.

Well theres another Gatos thoughts for today, I shall be working on my second chapter of Breaking Fate. CYA!~~~~