My final words as a friend to you, Cori

          This is just to specify a few things that, if not pointed out I feel our atmosphere would become abrupt. Harsh words were given and received and I feel that this climax in emotions needed to happen for me to see certain things in myself and about you. Being the strong one was never something I was born with, I always found myself reaching a hand out for help with a gleam of hope that it'd be held and someone would come to my rescue. But as I let this go on I found in myself how pitiful I was. But this past year has been hard on my but I can say that I've become stronger out of it. It's something only I can see I think, but baby step by baby step I want to become 'the hero' everyone dreams for. Someone loyal and with good morals. But when you are as messed up as me it can be hard to always see the light at the end of the tunnel.

      I think my hero is honestly Megu, see is what I'd say is the closest I've ever seen to a 'hero figure.' She is amirablely intelligent, her smile is contagious. Seeing a frown she will take it to heart and even with little things wipe it right off. Words can not express this enough to you Megu but you are every ones hero. I want to become more like you Megu, someone people can look up to (figuratively and literally)

       But back to the point, Cori I just needed to say that I wanted to be your friend, and share great things with you. But the more time I spent with you the more and more my emotions felt out of place, I would go home and cry, wondering why I went to school with a smile and a good aditude if everything I said was belittled. I still have my issues, but because of Megu and Nej now I feel I can stand on my own two feet and handle them myself. So I have to say I choose them over you. But even after our quell over Kik, I still felt a hint in my heart that I wanted the best for you, I hoped that even the 'bad guy' to this story had a happy ending. Wether out of our previous friendship or out of my caring nature I truthfully don't know but I hope even without me and Megu you see your flaws and bandage them up so people around you don't get so hurt like I did. I know some of your other friends felt at some time the same way I did, belittled. I dont want to be your enemy but I am not your friend. For the sake of others though I want to get along and I hope SOMEDAY we ALL get along like a big happy family.